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Gahhhh

Posted in Uncategorized on July 24, 2015 by lovetrust

It’s been a while….I know I shouldn’t have kept you waiting. But I’m here now. 😛

Oscritney is backkkk! 😛

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I’m Back…

Posted in Uncategorized on December 17, 2011 by lovetrust

I’m backkkkk!

Talk about a break…right?

Last Note

Posted in Uncategorized on December 31, 2010 by lovetrust

We never know where life is going to take us; if anything can attest to that statement it would be 2010. This year was a rollercoaster ride – so many ups yet so many downs but it was all a learning experience.   I worked so hard to make relationships work just to have them blow up in my face. It was a very difficult thing to have to go through and finally admit to myself that things would no longer ever work out. But the thing is, I DID IT. I accepted things as they were and finally moved on. What do you say to 4 years? As I’ve told people countless times – “I still hold a piece of him in my heart. We tried again and unfortunately it didn’t work out. All you can do is accept things for what they are, look ahead and keep moving forward”.  I’ll always cherish the good times and hold them close to my heart.

It seemed to be a year where I finally opened my eyes and realized where I was and where I wanted to be in life. I put so many things on hold for so long and finally got over living my life for other people. If it’s one thing I regret, it’s putting others before me.

This year I started going back to church. Although I’ve always been a skeptic when it comes to certain things, I can honestly say I feel like such a big weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I’m a very spiritual person and attending services every Sunday again has helped a great deal. I’ve learned not to hold on to resentment or things that have happened in the past. I forgive those who have hurt me in any regard in the past. *I need to write to some of these people* hahaha. God, you are my savior and I thank you for everything that you did and didn’t do this year.

I’m so glad I have such a supportive group of family and friends. I’ve heard “Everything will be okay in the end, if it’s not okay, it’s not the end”. How true is that? I’m so happy with life and where I’m headed now. I feel a sense of direction that I haven’t felt in so long. Things seem to be going back on track and I’m excited for what 2011 will bring. I have school to look So much negativity this year but I chose not to dwell on it and look at where it got me. It’s all about positivity!

I was raised with such great values and what my parents have taught me is always something that I will guard with my heart and take with me to the very end. 2010, you took me by surprise but I’ve dealt extremely well and look forward to 2011. Happy New Years! I wish you all nothing but prosperity and happiness! May 2011 bring you everything you need and more!

 

Love,

 

O.

 

Thank You.

Posted in Uncategorized on November 25, 2010 by lovetrust

I don’t even know how to begin this blog….I wanted that dramatic first sentence to grab the readers attention lol, my head isn’t all there this morning though… ❤
Anyway, first and foremost I would like to say thank you to god. You are my true savior and the one who has opened my eyes and my life to new opportunities. Thank you for what you do and don’t do.

Thank you to my parents, siblings and extended family & friends. You’re unconditional love and support has given me the strength to keep pushing forward and never give up! I will always cherish it and guard it with my heart.

Life certainly leads you in all kinds of crazy directions but we all deal one way or another and continue moving forward. My eyes are open and ready to take on the world!

I am thankful for another day. 🙂

 

 

 

Top of My Head

Posted in Uncategorized on October 27, 2010 by lovetrust

I’m apologizing now if it seems that I am rambling or if there are any grammatical errors. Everything and anything that is in my head at the moment will be published….

I honestly don’t know where my life is headed at the moment. So many things – ideas, events to process and at times I feel so lost and desperate for direction. I know that things will be okay, there is no doubt about that – I just wish I had solutions right now for the problems and doubts in my mind. 6 days… in 6 days things will change (drastically?)…maybe I’m exaggerating. lol. In any case, in 6 days I will be moving out of this home and heading back to my parents. My significant other and I have split (took place last month) and he’ll be heading down to San Diego. It’s so crazy to think how much stuff can change in only one year. Last year at this time I was so in love and I felt like he and I could conquer the world. Now it’s as if we are different paths in totally different locations. Will we ever meet again? =/ Tough to say and as much as I still love him, I’m afraid it seems that the chapter is coming to a close. So many wonderful experiences with this great man and the good definitely outweighs the bad. What do you say to 4 years? The only cure for heartbreak is TIME. Time heals all wounds. He’s sitting behind me at the moment on his computer and I’m so tempted to hug him so tight and kiss his beautiful lips – tell him that I love him so much, but I digress and hang on to those feelings. I’m in such a vulnerable state and I hate the feeling. You got people that are friends with him ASKING ME OUT! The vultures start coming and it’s so disappointing – especially when it’s people that even you yourself trusted. So sad…

The whole situation has me distraught and I can’t really point out exactly how I feel. Am I sad? Mad? Hurt? Resentful? Maybe it’s all. I just hold out on the fact that maybe this is all for the best. Like they say, one door closes and another opens…or something like that. hahaha. I have amazing family and friends for support. 2010 was an interesting year and I’m looking forward to 2011. ❤ Time to let go and keep moving forward.

Peace.

-O.

An Open Letter

Posted in Uncategorized on October 23, 2010 by lovetrust

Life can certainly lead you in all sorts of unexpected directions. But we proceed with our journey and search for answers we are looking for and keep moving forward.

It seems that every year we go through these changes that we ourselves are not prepared for – and as the year draws to a close, all we can do is reflect and try to understand the what, when, where and why’s. The 2nd half of 2010 has certainly lead me in a path I really wasn’t expecting, yet here we are. Accepting things for what they are and comprehend where things might have turned for the better or worse. Is there things that I would change? Maybe. But this isn’t about regrets, it’s about intending on coming to terms with the way things are presently.

As much as I may want to be with that certain someone, as much as I want to stay in the home that I live in, as much as I want to have a job again….I’ll accept it all as is for now. God has a plan and I will get my answers sooner or later. Things happen for  a reason and rather then wallowing on what’s wrong with the world and what problems I have at the moment – I’m going to think positive and as I said before; Keep moving forward. There is a reason why him and I are no longer together. As much as I love him and I’m sure he feels the same for me, we both must come to accept that maybe we both found “Mr. Right” but not at the right time. Who knows what the future has in store. I love that man to death and would honestly do anything for him. There comes a place and a time for everything though and who knows where life will take us. Maybe moving back with my parents also isn’t such a bad thing at all. It would give me the opportunity that I’ve been seeking for, for the past few years – which is to go back to school. Things really aren’t that bad, I’m sure there are plenty of people out there in worse off situations so I shouldn’t complain. Life is beautiful and even though at times I may not like where it’s headed or what’s happening, I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world. This is my open letter to those out there. I may not have gone into much details about certain things but I’ll keep those thoughts and memories to myself. A small reflection of where my life is at the moment….

 

– O.

So it Begins

Posted in Uncategorized on October 3, 2010 by lovetrust

So it begins today….once again blogging. I am so excited to begin writing again and sharing my adventures with the outside world! It’s been close to a year since I last blogged on blogspot so I thought I’d change it up and start anew. So many things have changed since I last wrote and expressed my feelings to the world, but that’s the thing with life. You never know where it’s going to take you.

A year ago today, I would have never guessed I would be in the position that I am today but I am honestly looking forward to new life lessons and where I am headed in general. So this begins a new journey – thank you god for what you do and don’t do. Everything happens for a reason and I am looking forward to where this road leads me to.

– O.